#2: It's not your fault.

For years, the "I-coulda-woulda-shoulda" rang deep in my head.  At times, it still does.   As a mother, it was my only job - the most important job; to keep my son, my Aiden, safe from harm... to keep him fed, warm, and loved.  I failed, didn't I?

After years of self-torment I came to the realization that hating myself and/or blaming myself wasn't going to bring Aiden back to me. The reality of my situation is my son is gone from this Earth. 

SIDS is not the result of an imperfect parent.  SIDS took my son - I didn't give him away.

SIDS was not the result of not loving Aiden enough.  I'm still here bleeding for him EVERYDAY.

SIDS was not the result of maternal failure.  I keep his memory alive and work through his memory.

I know deep within the bounds of my broken heart.. SIDS is not my fault.